ME vs. MOM

today i have to be domestic ~ that means i must be productive ~ i must go to the grocery store (which i think most days i would rather slit my wrists than do) ~ i must do laundry or the five people in this house will have no clean clothes to wear. i am sure that i have made my 12yo son wear the same pair of jeans enough this week that soon he is going to turn me in to cps for neglect. i always imagined "someday" when i would have someone come in and clean my house for me, grocery shop for me, do my laundry, etc. while i happily sip starbuck's or margaritas with my wonderful girlfriends. hmmmm, i guess i realize that i am that someone i have been waiting for. ha!!

friday is the one day of the week that i have to myself and dammit ~ i just want to play on the computer all day or go to the lake or go shopping or ~ anything but be domestic and do those things that i am supposed to do. friday is supposed to be MY day ~ and never in my craziest dreams ( and believe me i have a wonderfully wild imagination ) did i ever think that i would have to spend MY day doing all of those domestic duties. let's face it ~ i just want one day a week to rip off that mom label and be this person i think i once was ~ cindy. maybe that is what girlfriend getaways are for ~ and i actually do have one of those coming up in a couple of months! so, maybe today i will be a little of both ~ i was never good at balancing and MOM vs ME is definitely a balancing act that i am still trying to master.